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Former Patients Revealed What It Was Like To Be In A Coma, And Holy Crap
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“No dreams, no lights, no voices, just nothing.” I'm an Associate Editor on BuzzFeed's Pop Culture team who spends my days fangirling over all my favorite TV shows and movies. Some stories deal with topics like suicide. "Here are some things about her experience: She doesn't have any memories of the year prior or the year and a half-ish after her coma, and obviously no memories of the car crash. She suffered a traumatic brain injury (TBI), and when she first got out of the coma, she would get naked and have sex with people and get angry very easily. These are common problems of people who suffer from a TBI. She went back to school after the coma, but her brain was still healing a lot. She was held back another year because her brain was still not retaining anything. Today, she is a wonderful, bright 30-year-old with a college degree. She has a slight speech impediment, gets frustrated more easily than most, and it took her a while to get driving down. Honestly, she still scares the hell out of me when she drives, but there are worse drivers out there." "What was going on, this part I had no recollection of, I guess somewhere or sometime in my sleep, I had stopped breathing. I was pretty lucky because my family had stopped by the house to check on me. They noticed my car was still in the driveway, which meant I wasn't at work, and I wasn't getting the door. Looking through the window, they could see me lying there in bed, not moving. I wasn’t responding either, so they went through a window, and I was unresponsive, so 911 was called. I believe it took them a couple of hours trying to get me back and keep me stable, but my lungs weren’t working, so they had to intubate, and I was in a coma with life support, all that fun stuff, for about two days. I was still pretty much in the other place for a long time. It felt like I was traveling through space or something. I saw and experienced a lot of amazing things I can’t explain or remember well anymore. I wasn't scared. It felt like a really long journey. I didn’t necessarily see anyone for a while, but I didn’t feel alone. I felt the presence of others. There was this black infinite darkness, and it was the most wonderful thing. It was like I could create an experience with my imagination; there was no sadness, only bliss without worry. And it was very hypnotizing. I really considered letting myself go into it. Just letting go. I didn’t want to let go, though. I have a daughter who is my world. She was just about a year old at the time, and I kept thinking of her and her mother; it kept me from just letting go into that peaceful bliss. I couldn’t leave them." Responses have been edited for length/clarity.